Ever wonder if they listen?

I have often wondered if my kids ever truly listen to me. The other day I got my answer and it put me in my spot pretty quick and reminded me again why I want the kids to know the things I want them to know.


These verses have stuck with me recently


Luke 6:30-36
Give to everyone who asks you, and if anyone takes what belongs to you, do not demand it back. ³¹ Do to others as you would have them do to you.
³² “If you love those who love you, what credit is that to you? Even sinners love those who love them. ³³ And if you do good to those who are good to you, what credit is that to you? Even sinners do that. ³⁴ And if you lend to those from whom you expect repayment, what credit is that to you? Even sinners lend to sinners, expecting to be repaid in full. ³⁵ But love your enemies, do good to them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back. Then your reward will be great, and you will be children of the Most High, because he is kind to the ungrateful and wicked. ³⁶ Be merciful, just as your Father is merciful.


Tanner and I have had discussions and one day Tanner made a comment about doing something for someone. I didn't feel like it would be my place to be involved and I told him he and his sister could. He looked at me and said "Mom, you are always telling us to do something nice for others and you do nice things for others. Why don't you want to help?"  I tried to explain to him my reasons and his reply was simple "You are always telling us to be the better person. So be the better person."


Wow, he was right.


It doesn't matter what I think, be the person I am suppose to be and expect nothing back in return. No matter who it is. No matter what that person has or hasn't done to or for me. Be the person God intended me to be.


It humbled me to know that Tanner is listening and wanting to be the person God intended him to be.

I didn't realize it had been so long since I had posted....I try to do this so I can go back and look back on the past year and I realized wow, have I been that busy?! Unfortunately I guess I have.


School ended with Ella graduating Kindergarten and Tanner heading into 7th grade. He mulled over a lot of things, band or no band, football or no football. Finally he came to the conclusion to give band another try and to try football. We had many discussions about the pros and cons of each over dinner and I told him we would support what ever decision he made, just to understand that once you start, you finish.


Summer started and we had a few things planned. We went to see my sister and her boys. We always love going down there and love playing!

 

 

 

 We also were able to go to Castaway Cove for a day and always have fun just getting away! Unfortunately, this mom, didn't take her camera

 

 

Then in July I planned on us going to Disney World!! I don't know who was more excited, me or the kids?! I promised the kids we would go this year and my only regret is we didn't do it all. But we plan on going back. I have also decided, if it is a trip over 10 hours, we are flying.

 

Neither of my kids have flown and Tanner was supper worried about flying. Our flight was due to leave at 11 and we were told to get to the airport 2 hours before our flight left. We got up, loaded the car and headed to the airport early.

Can you tell he was nervous???

After we got there, he decided flying wasn't so bad after all!!

Our first day was Universal Studios and Ella's makeover!! There will never be any words to describe how amazing it was and how much fun we had! Ella even talked her brother into riding the Tower of Terror. I had to bribe him with ice cream after and he finally consented. The funniest thing was Ella was the one screaming and Tanner was the one laughing?!

Our second day was the Animal Kingdom. It was awesome! We love zoos and animals and so this was the perfect fit for Tanner. Ella wasn't thrilled but soon came around (after I let her get her face painted!)

And of course!! What is any of our vacations without dinosaurs?! The past several years dinosaurs just happen to be where ever we go!!

 

This time Tanner talked Ella into the dinosaur ride and guess who didn't like the ride?! Yep, Ella HATED the ride. She kept her head down most of the time begging me to get her off saying "I don't want to be here now." Well sister, now is not the time to tell me you don't like it! ha!!

 



Our last day was the Magic Kingdom!! And what is a trip to Disney World without seeing Mickey?? Ella was in EVERY picture with Mickey. NEVER said a word to him just a hug and HAD to be in all the pictures we took with Mickey!

 My favorite movie of all time is Beauty and the Beast and Ella told me to go stand in front of Gaston's Tavern so she could take a picture of me. So of course I obliged!!

 We WILL be going back!!

Then summer quickly came to an end. The kids started school, (which this mom was not ready for) and off to the races. Tanner is doing Jr High football and manager again for the Bobcats. Ella is in 1st grade and doing gymnastics again.

And yes, Tanner is taller than I am!! :( (again, I was not ready for that nor anything else he has came in telling me about girls and homecoming and parties.) My "little" boy is growing up. I couldn't be any prouder of who he is becoming and to see him grow into who I hope he has the potential of becoming!

And Miss Ella is growing too!!  She is still opinionated, sassy, stubborn and out going. She and I butt heads A LOT but I am just as proud of her for sticking by what she thinks and believes in.

We wish every one a safe and happy school year!!


Choices

Not too long ago I received an email about a guy who was happy everyday and it goes on to say that he had a horrific accident, he survived and he still kept his happy disposition. He had someone ask him how after all that had happened how he kept the happy disposition and his reply was simple. I have a choice to be happy every day or not. I can let all these little things affect me or I can choose to look over them and be happy. So he chose to be happy everyday. I started thinking about that and he was right. You can let the little things affect you everyday or you can let it go over, pass you by, ignore it, what ever it takes to not ruin your happiness. It has kind of taken a deeper root with me too. You have a choice everyday to let God and Christ live in you or not. Let your light shine so others may see Christ living in you and give glory to your Father who is in heaven. So today and everyday I am choosing to be happy and to let Christ live in me for others to see.

New Year

Just about everyone I know has made or makes New Year's resolutions. I don't so much but feel like my New Year started earlier last year. As a matter of fact I consider my New Year and New Life started December 16, 2012. You see on December 16th I was baptized. I finally gave my life to God and asked him to be in control. I can honestly say, I don't know why I waited as long as I did to give my life to Him because it is the best thing and feeling in this world. It was also special for me because my kids have seen me struggle and they were there as were my parents. So to start my new life I felt it appropriate that it was just us. Since that night, the kids and I have made extra effort to sit down and eat at the dinner table every night as well as say a prayer before we eat. We have always said bedtime prayers but after we say them Tanner has asked if I would come to his room and say a prayer with just he and I. He has grown in his faith and so have I. At the dinner table we discuss how our day went and have talked about things that we need to work on. Or something that has happened during the day that is a something we can learn from. I'm trying really hard to show and be an example to my kids. I have noticed that I need to also explain or talk to the kids about stuff instead of just doing it. For the most part, I get tired of people talking the talk without walking the walk and I walk without talking and have realized my kids need to hear it from me besides see what I do. I know I am a work in progress and I know I will not be perfect. This has been the hardest thing for me, knowing I will fail. I think that is what kept me from giving my life to God. But I do have the hope of being forgiven and asking for forgiveness.

Time Passing Too Fast

I know that time starts flying in about April. We have birthdays, Easter, and start to the end of school activities. This year seems to be going faster than I want. Tanner has been interested in hunting and shooting. Since I carry and I have been around guns all of my life, Tanner has asked more questions and has shown an interest in shooting. So my dad and I took Tanner out to shoot and considering how hard the wind was blowing he did really well for his first time out. He asked if he could go back out again. While we were shooting I left my camera in the care of my daughter. I haven't decided if that is a good thing yet or not. ha!

Beginning in April we have birthday parties and Easter parties and Easter. This year, my dad's birthday, Tanner's birthday and Easter all fell within a week. I also did Ella's star attraction around the end of March which was a week before. She does enjoy being the center of attention at home, but at school is a little different. This year, her dad was given the privilege of reading to them instead of me!

Easter hunts and easter baskets filled with goodies and candy!

Then birthday fun! This year Tanner wanted to invite a few friends to go eat pizza and bowl. So two of his friends went with us and I had so much fun listening to their conversations. They were even super good with Ella, helping her bowl and even letting her sit with them.

We cannot forget gymnastic recitals and end of year parties. Ella had so much fun at gymnastics and enjoys going.

Ella's last day at Ms. Angie's was harder than I expected. This is her last year with Ms. Angie before starting kindergarten and we have enjoyed our days with her.

This is also Tanner's last year of elementary. He will start Jr. High next year and I really don't know how I feel about that yet. I let Ella take pictures of his last playday.

Two weeks ago we had Ella's graduation and it is official, she is a kindergartner. My baby isn't a baby anymore, but she is becoming a beautiful girl!!

This Thursday is Tanner's Walk of Fame through the halls of the elementary. He is growing and becoming a handsome man whether I like it or not. I just hope I give him the right guidance for his life. So this has been our two months in a nut shell. Enjoy your summer as we will and be safe!!

Faith

I have posted lots of blogs and most are up beat. But let's get real. Life isn't always up beat. Not that my life is bad nor that it is not great, but there are times where I struggle. In the past year I have been brutally honest with myself and took a hard look at where I needed to be and to be honest, I have struggled with it. Financially, emotionally, physically and spirtually. However, I am coming around a curve and I see this beautiful light at the end of where I want to go, but there are hills and right now, I am still struggling spirtually.

I was born and raised in church and when I went to college I attended church but not like I should have been and was no where close to where I needed to be in my faith. I struggled and saw the light after my son was born and began the journey to where I should have been. Along the way, I lost sight again. As a family we had trials and I was working on trying to put our life as a family in God's hands. Wow, talk about a test of my faith. I struggled then and struggled for a long time after. Then another chapter in our life began. I started putting God back into my life with me and the kids and really started digging deep. I have really started talking to God and asking for his help. I have seen his answers and proof that God has been working in my life. Believe me, I know and thank him daily for my beautiful, healthy kids, my amazing and loving family. I am healthy enough to work 2 jobs to provide for my family and have been fortunate enough to have a house that keeps us warm and shelter from the storms. My attitude on life has changed. I ask for help in being a more positive role model for my kids and be the best possible mother for them. Believe me when I say, I know God is working in me, because I'm not as stressed out as I used to be and the kids see me laugh, which used to not happen too often, but now is a daily occurence.

I say that to say, that when I am struggling spirtually it is because of my relationships with others. It is how many times do I continue to turn my other cheek just to have it happen again? How many times do I continue to forgive or at some point do I completly walk away? I know He instructs us to forgive but I question if I am a fool for continuing to forgive and turn the other cheek? I feel like the people I forgive think it's ok to continue to do the things they do and expect me to forgive them because I have done so in the past or I have turned the other cheek.

I also struggle with casting all my worries on Him because I feel some of my worries are no where near as important as a little boy who is fighting for his life. Or for the mother who wishes for a child. I feel like I am being so selfish for worrying and asking for help when there are others struggling more than I am. I have prayed and am continuing to pray and asking for guidance. I have faith that one day I won't be struggling with this and I know that, but it seems to be what I struggle with the most.

But I am not taking for granted the beautiful life he has provided for me and thank Him for ALL the amazing blessings in my life.

My Promise

My promise to my kids is that I will be your mom and I will love you until the day I die. I will do the best I can to provide for you both. I will kiss you goodnight. We will say bedtime prayers. We will give thanks for what we have and cherish the time we get to be together. I will be cheering you on and comforting you when you are sad. I will help with your homework as long as I can and I will wait up til you come home. I will worry til I know you are safe. We will be a family and we will go to church. We will laugh and have fun.

I am not perfect by any means. I will forget packing pajamas or toothbrushes (because I forget my own!). I will not always have the right answer. I will be wrong at times. I will make mistakes and for that I am sorry. I'm not the smartest person out there, but I will do my best to help you figure it out. I may get tired but it doesn't mean I don't want to sit with you and read with you. We may not have everything, but we have everything we need.

Always remember, you are MY CHILDREN and I LOVE YOU more than you will ever know!